Young George - Realer Lyrics

I can't look in the mirror
I can't see any clearer
I just wanna be near ya
I just want something realer

Heard you were home for the weekend
I missed you though
I been busy every evening
My mission yo
Is to flip this wisdom, I been distant, trippin'
Having visions, living too far from you
And now I got no clue
On what's my next move
I wanna buy a house that's big enough for two
Maybe 3 or 4 and
Have a child or more
And start this new life
With the one I adore
But see it's not that easy
Believe me I tried
When my hands are tied and I'm in this bind
I got too much pride to push dreams aside so
Where do we stand ?
I'm a broken man
I got a broken plan
And I broke our fam
Apart it's too hard
And now I can't stand
The facts it's staring back
That I'm actually bad
I expect full devotion
While I'm barely giving half

I can't look in the mirror
I can't see any clearer
I just wanna be near ya
I just want something realer

I guess I'm not
Everything that you thought
I got problems
Like every other person
I beg your pardon
Mine seem much larger
That's a young man talkin'
In a few shorts months
They'll all be forgotten
Cause I'll have a real issue
You'll leave, I'll miss you
Always tried to fix you
Shoulda let you be
And shoulda loved your faults
So few and far between
Me and you were art
A painting of a dream
It all seemed
Crystal clean
When you're looking from a distance
At the seams, we were splitting
Tryna sew together stitchin'
Wouldn't listen to the whispers
'Bout visitors I was ignorant
And then I couldn't live with it
You said ok that's it I'm finished
It's past time we talked
Too much goes unsaid
Too much is left to thought
Imma give you a call
And if you choose to ignore
I'll be there in 20 minutes knocking all on your door

I can't look in the mirror
I can't see any clearer
I just wanna be near ya
I just want something realer