Justin Gebel - Paper Boat Lyrics

I have nothing left to receive
Nothing to do, nothing to perceive
Lost in the desert, my conscience says to me
What I need is some tea or some arsenic
I spent too much time making myself sick
I lost my soul to a vampire's wish
Dragging myself to the ground
It doesn't matter if you smile just do not frown
Feel your throat close around your fingers
And wait for death to come

But not today, it's not the right time
There's one more thing that I had to do
I had to make a paper boat for someone like you
It got lost in the rain

I got lost and had a good cry
Just barely evaded suicide
I fell over and landed in glass again
Sweater weather even if it's a thousand degrees
It's better than the heat I'll feel if they find me screaming in the shower when I'm alone

I lost my paper boat again
But I just gave it to a friend
I'm not surviving the flood this time
I'm sick of making everything rhyme

Maybe today, it feels like the right time
There's one more I have to do
I have to make a paper boat for someone like you
As big as it can be

There's something wrong with me
Paralyzed with fear and ecstasy
I'm a freak
There's nothing I can believe
Nothing is real to me

Spent my time lying to myself
Everyone's just worried about my health
Don't they have something more important to do?
Crawling along this empty path
My sunken eyes whenever I laugh
Just a few more grains of sand

It's the day, it's the right time
There's nothing that I had to do
I never had to make a paper boat for someone like you
If that's what you think would help